Making Memories… For The Rest Of Our Lives

by grannydew, posted in The Memories Series

Chapter 1

“CAAAANNNNNN!!” Sanem yelled, as she tried to hold both Deniz and Ates, both wanting to eat. He dropped the spatula, quickly turned off the stove and ran down the hall. ” Coming, my love, what’s wrong.” He yelled, as he heard the two crying. He sprinted into the nursery, and what a sight, the two had Sanem all but pinned in the chair, squirming and clawing to get to the food source. He smiled, her hair was falling over her eyes, and the crying from Deniz and Ates had woke up Yildiz. Now they were all going, he quickly scooped up Deniz and satisfied him with a bottle of breast milk they had as a backup, holding him and the bottle with one hand, he reached for Yildiz. But just his touched seemed to soothe her and she calmed down. Sanem took over Ates, putting her on the breast to feed. ” Wow Can, I thought I was going to lose it for a minute,” She replied, smoothing down her hair as her baby ate. Can laughed, ” You did great, my love.” All you have to do is call me and I’ll be there,” he said, giving her a wink. Yildiz was definitely a daddy’s girl, she wanted him to be touching her whenever she was awake, and he was more than pleased to oblige her. Each one of them had their little personality traits, Ates was more of a loner, except when it came to eating, she loved to eat. Deniz wanted his momma to give him all her attention, which consumed much of Sanem’s time. Yildiz wasn’t as demanding of her but was quite aware when she wasn’t there. The three Divits, such a combination of both their parents, how Can and Sanem loved them and cherished each moment with them.

With this crisis handled, and Deniz feed and down for a morning nap, Sanem also put Ates down, but Yildiz was not so cooperative, still wanting only daddy. Can took her and went back to the kitchen to finish breakfast. He propped her up in her seat on the counter as he went about making the eggs. ” Sanem, scrambled eggs, is that ok. You know you need the protein.” He called to her making Yildiz jerk around in her seat at the sound of his voice. ” Yes, that’s great, whatever you fix I’ll eat, I’m starving.” She answered back from the bathroom. She looked at herself in the mirror, ” Wow, I look pretty rough,” she thought, as she ran a comb through her hair. A shower after breakfast would be great. Back in the kitchen, the baby watched his every move, her eyes wide, he knew she couldn’t really see him, but she knew who he was, so he talked to her repeatedly, explaining everything he was doing, and why. ” Well young lady, your mommy needs all the food she can get right now, just to supply you three with all you need. So, I’m glad to make this food for her.” He stated, gently squeezing her nose with his fingers. She turned her head from side to side, as he pinched her cheeks. He laughed, ” Just like your mother, she always loved for me do to that.” He spoke. She kicked her legs as if she knew just what he said and approved. Sanem make it to the kitchen, ” Oh honey, this smells great, I just can’t seem to get enough food.” She said grabbing a bite of fruit from the bowl. ” Did you make toast, or do you want me to.” She asked wrapping her arms around his waist from behind. ” I’ve got it baby, just have a seat.” He told her. Yildiz let out a cry, letting them know she was still there. Sanem took her seat for the counter, ” Well, my oldest daughter, how do you like spending time with daddy in the kitchen, is he teaching you well.” She said winking at Can, as he watched her talk to their baby. Can handed Sanem a plate piled with eggs and vegetables, with toast on the side, ” Eat every bite young lady, or you won’t have enough food the babies,” he ordered, leaning down and giving her a kiss, and then a second one with that one lingering for a while. She felt so good, and her lips tasted like nothing he had ever had before, sweet yet salty, with a touch of tartness. She was intoxicating, and it was even more so since she was a mother.

” Can, be careful, Yildiz is watching.” She said, looking at her baby. Can laughed, ” I’m quite sure she’s not watching us, she’s just seeing all the light.” He said, backing away to fix his plate. Sanem dug into the plate of eggs, ” Sweetie this are delicious, how do you make eggs so special.” She said rolling her eyes. She ate every bite and probably could have had more but didn’t want to seem like a pig. “Can, do you think I might get a shower quickly, I would really love it.” She said, circling his neck with her arms and kissing his ear. In an instant his desire was fully engaged, and his heart was beating fast. It had been a month since they had been intimate, and his sex drive was over the top. Can shook his head, ” Sure go enjoy, I’ll take care of this little girl.” He smiled, kissing his daughter gently on the cheek. Sanem hurried into the bathroom, knowing she probably didn’t have a lot of time before the other two woke up. She would be happy with a quick shower and hair wash. She was letting the water run over her, it seemed all the muscles in her body was sore, with all the lifting and holding they each demanded. But how would she ever grow tired if it, they had been the greatest gift that she had ever received. Can and her three babies were what she lived for, and the memories of this would be forever in her mind. Her notebook was her sounding board, she told it everything, revealed all her fears and joy onto those pages of her life. One day she would read them to her children, and they would know how precious they were to her and Can.

Can took his baby and went to the nursery, talking to her all the way, ” Now listen, I want you to lay down here and go right to sleep, no crying or you’ll wake your brother and sister. Daddy is going to join mommy in the shower, no…don’t look at me that way, she’s going to love it.” He said, patting her gently on the back. He laid her down in her favorite position and gave her a couple of pats on the back, in seconds she closed her eyes and drifted off. ” That’s daddy’s little girl,” he whispered. ” I knew you’d understand. He grabbed the baby monitor from the dresser and snuck into the bathroom. He set the monitor on the counter and quickly undressed, seeing her silhouette through the frosted glass, it made his heart beat faster. Like it was the first time, but in a way, it was, the first time with her as a mommy and him as a daddy. He opened the shower door, she jerked around, ” Can, what are you doing, what about the babies, are they asleep, they’re going to wake up.” She was stammering, as he held his finger up to her lips, ” Shhh, they are fine, Yildiz is looking after them for us,” he joked, ” No I have the monitor right here on the counter, we will hear them if they wake.” He whispered, as he pushed her against the shower wall. Her breath caught, she had missed his touch, and that look of desire that filled eyes, it made her body tingle with a warmth that was indescribable. His kiss was different, different than the kiss of earlier in the kitchen. It was a demanding kiss, a kiss of a raw passion and want, he ran his hands down her body. ” Sanem, you make my heart beat so fast I think I might die, with just the sight of you.” He growled in her ear. ” I have missed you, my love, every inch of you, I want you so badly.”  She smiled slightly, ” Can, I too have missed you, but we probably need to hurry, before we get interrupted.” She said, feeling the hardness of him rub against her stomach. She answered his kisses with a demand of her own.

” What a way to start this day”…..she thought, feeling her  body ignite into a fire that she hoped would never go out.

“She could truly get use to this”….

Chapter 2


The water ran over their bodies, how he had missed the feel of this woman, inside and out. She satisfied him like nothing else in the world. They breathed heavy as they rested against the shower wall, ” Can, are you ok? She asked, gasping for a breath, ” because I’m not sure I am. Where did all that come from.” She asked stroking the taunt muscles in his back. ” We probably should have used protection, you know.” It would be just our luck.” Her mind shuttering at the thought of another baby in 9 months. She wanted to take her time with these three and cherish each one of them. Can rested his head against her forehead, ” There wasn’t any time for that my love, this was what you call a dire emergency.” He whispered, rubbing his hands down the lines of her body, stopping at and cupping breasts in his hands. They were so round and full, it made him want her again, but he knew he would have to wait for another time. The first sound came as a whimper, then the second one a little louder. Sanem looked at him, ” Can, I think this shower is over, my dear.” But thank you for the best one I’ve ever had.” She smiled, kissing his chest. His body excited her, it was so toned and smooth, she had never seen a naked man before her husband, but she knew she would never see one like this one, nor did she want to. She slipped out of the shower, leaving him there to collect himself. She dried quickly and slipped on her robe, by then both Deniz and Ates were in full harmony, singing their song of hunger. She scooped up Ates and got her positioned and started patting Deniz to try and calm him. Can was right behind her ready to help. He pickup Deniz from his crib, and started talking to him, it seemed to ease his frustration some, but with all the racket it woke Yildiz too. They looked at each other, as they patted and soothed their babies, ” what a delightful dilemma we have,” they seem to say with their eyes.

After the round of feeding and changing was done, Can looked at her, ” Sanem, we need help, I know you wanted to do it with just us, but at some point I’ll need to go back to the agency, and you can’t handle them alone. Shall we start looking?” Her eyes rimmed with tears, ” I know your right, but I wanted to do all of this on our own.” She reached for his hand. ” We were blessed with them all, and I wanted to take care of them ourselves, but I can see that will be impossible.” She looked lovingly into his eyes. ” Ok, we can start looking around for help, but we will be very picky about who we chose.” Can nodded, “I’m not going to go back to work anytime soon but, we still need the help.” He reassured her. She smiled, ” Great, because I kind of liked the time in the shower this morning, maybe we could make that a routine.” She said, begging him with her eyes. In an instant he was weak in the knees, drawn into her, ” I am here to serve Mrs. Divit, your wish is my commend, it always has been, and always will be.” He bowed to her and kissing her hand. She laughed, ” Ahh, my Prince Albatross, you have served me well, of which you will be greatly rewarded.” Accepting his kiss and giving him a wink. and just like on cue, Yildiz decided it was time for her to eat. They both laughed and Sanem took her in her arms, cuddling her against her, as she quickly latched on for her lunch. Can watched them, in such amazement it made him have goosebumps. He was brought back to reality with the ringing of his phone. Sanem motioned him out of the room to take the call.

” Hello Emre,” what’s up”. He asked. ” Well first things first, how are those babies? His brother was anxious to get a report. Can smiled, ” They couldn’t be better, you just wouldn’t believe how perfect they are.” And Sanem is a perfect momma.” He added. Emre laughed, ” I bet she is Abi, and you have to be the best dad I know.” He told him, remembering the Can Divit of a couple of years ago, vowing that marriage wasn’t for him. Now look at him. They made plans for Emre and Leila to come out for a visit soon, Emre knew his wife was dying to get her hands on those babies. ” Emre, what did you call about? He asked, but not sure he wanted to know. ” Do you have any idea when you will be back in the office, we have a couple of new prospective clients and might need your help.” He asked, hoping he would be back soon. Can sighed, ” I hadn’t thought about it much, Sanem really needs me here now, so I don’t know how that’s going to work.” What clients are they.” He asked him. “It’s a jewelry company and a new clothing company.” Emre explained. ” The jewelry company has asked specifically about you so I thought it would be nice if you could be here for the initial meeting.” Emre urged, hoping to spark his interest. Can wasn’t really ready to go back to work, the thought of being away from Sanem and the babies was a big turn off for him. ” Let me think about it Emre, but I’m not promising anything, and why were they asking for me to attend. I’ll have to get someone here for Sanem and that won’t be easy.” He explained, trying to defuse the offer. Emre agreed saying the meeting was the next day at 10:00 am and might turn into a lunch also.

He walked back in the nursery, and Sanem had Deniz feeding and was holding Yildiz on the other side. Ates was waiting patiently for her turn with her momma. His heart was full, so full of love for her that he couldn’t breathe. She was the most beautiful woman he had ever seen, sitting like that with his children draped all over her. She looked up,” Was that Emre?” She asked in a whisper, as not to disturb the babies. He shook his head, but what they had talked about was the furthest thing from his mind right now, all he wanted was to touch her and smell the aroma of her and their children. She smiled at him, making his heart skip a beat, ” Daddy, can you take Deniz, while I get Yildiz some lunch.” She asked, in a softy soothing tone, making him shudder at the sound of it. How can she be so sexy and inviting, without even knowing it, He thought?

She could hardly take her eyes off him, he looked so good standing there, shirtless and his hair still wet. ” I should be ashamed of myself,” she thought, ” Thinking of such things while feeding the kids.” But my god, all I can think about is that shower……

Her eyes looked glazed as she stared at him, ” He doesn’t have a clue what he does to me sometimes, she thought, ” How did I get so lucky, to get this beautiful man to love me….

Chapter 3

They finally had all three down at the same time as were able to take a breath. Sanem curled up on the sofa with a book and Can was making tea, ” Hey sweetie, what did Emre want earlier, you never said.” She asked laying the book down across the chest. Can shook his head, ” Nothing much, he asked about the little ones, and you, of course.” He said trying to evade the topic. ” And….what’s going on in the agency, they need you to come in, don’t they? She asked, sure thats what he was hiding. ” Well, it’s not a necessity, but they have a couple of possibilities for clients, but I told him I couldn’t.” You need me here and I want to be here.” He said, bringing her tea. She smiled, ” Thank you, but do you need to go, or should I say do you want to go.” She said searching him for an answer. He shook his head, ” No, I don’t want to go, and I think they can get by without me.” Don’t worry about it, Deren and Emre can handle it.” He answered, dismissing the thought of going to the office. He sat down beside her, hugging her up next to him, ” Right here is where I want to be, next to you, so don’t try and get rid of me.” He demanded, passing off the idea of returning to the agency without another thought.

Deren was rushing about as usual, barking out her orders to CeyCey. Emre and Leila had just come back from a lunch meeting with the bankers. “Deren, what now, you have to learn how to calm down.” Emre stated, rubbing her on the arm. ” Is Can coming to the meeting with the jewelry co., they have specifically asked for him to be there.” She screeched feeling her heart race from all the caffeine she had consumed that day. She held her head, ” Oh Emre, what are we going to do if he won’t come.”  Emre smiled, ” We’ll make it just fine, don’t worry.” Can has his hands full right now, and his main concern is Sanem and the babies.” He told her, trying to calm the situation. She knew that was true, but this was a big account, and they needed it. They were all curious as to why they had asked for Can to attend the meeting, they probably were fans of his and wanted to meet him. But whatever the case, it would take a major act to get him there.

Sanem and Can had both dozed off, slumped together on the sofa. Aziz and Mihriban peeked in the door, ” Aziz, look, they are both out, how sweet.” She said, hugging his arm. They had brought some dinner for them, they wanted to help as much as possible, but they were both stubborn and had refused most of their help. They went down the hall to the nursery to peek in on the babies. They seemed to all be sleeping, so they tiptoed back down the hallway. Just as they reached the door to leave, Deniz let out the first wail. In an instant Can was up and on his way to the nursery, eyes still half closed. In turn, Yildiz chimed in, angry that her sleep had been disturbed. Aziz and Mihriban watched him in amusement, as he stumbled down the hall. Sanem stirred on the sofa, slowly getting up, ” Can, I’m coming, where are you.” She mumbled. She turned to see the couple standing at the door, ” Oh, dad, Mihriban, what are you doing here.” She said, a bit confused.  She didn’t wait for their answer as she heard Ates, make her entrance to the choir. She turned and rushed down the hall, ” Mommy’s coming my dears,” she called. Can had picked up Deniz and Yildiz, but Ates was in a fighting mood. Sanem rushes in, ” Its ok baby, it’s ok,” she said, picking her up. ” Are they all hungry at the same time?” Can asked, juggling the pair. ” They need a diaper change, then eating.” She said, ” and your dad and Mihriban are in the living room.” She said, trying to act like a seasoned mother. 

Can reached for two bottles from the insulated bag in the nursery, and diapers from the dresser. He had become quite good at changing their diapers, no matter what they had done. The crying continued while he changed them, but Yildiz was calmed down after that, waiting patiently for her food. Sanem had Ates under control, dry and happy, being the only one latched on to mom for her lunch. Can had both of the other ones tucked in his huge, long arms and headed to the living room, ” Dad, Mihriban,….welcome to the Divit 3 ring circus, have a seat and enjoy the show.” He said smiling from ear to ear.  His dad laughed a huge laugh, ” Son, you have this all figured out, don’t you? You both are magnificent.” They sat down, and Mihriban took Yildiz from his arms, trying to help, but was quickly put in her place with a Divit squeal, ” Sorry, she’s a bit of a daddy’s girl, here you can take Deniz.” He offered, giving her a wInk. With Ates the smaller of the three, she ate the most, and enjoyed it more. She was finally full and happy and ready to see her grandparents, as they walked to the living room. Grandpa Aziz, was quick to take her from Sanem’s arms as she entered the room. 

Sanem smiled, ” I’m so glad to see you both, I think you’re our first visitors.” She replied. ” We brought food for you.” I know you have to be exhausted.” Mihriban told them, pleased to be able to help. Sanem clapped her hands, ” I’m sure Can’s happy about that, he’s been the one trapped with all the cooking.” Sanem said, blowing Can a kiss. The proud grandparents watched as the babies ate and prepared to take another nap, ” Such a gift we have been given.” Aziz said, his eyes glistening with tear of joy. Mihriban agreed as she helped Can tuck the babies in for their afternoon nap. When they joined Sanem and Aziz in the kitchen, Aziz took Can aside, ” Emre told me of the new potential clients today.” It sounds like a great deal.” Were you planning on making the meeting, they had asked for you to attend.” His dad said, with a hint of curiosity. ” Dad I’m not going, I want to be here for Sanem and the babies, this is the most important bonding time of their lives, and I want to experience it all.” He replied, with his voice low so Sanem didn’t hear. His dad nodded, ” I understand son, but Mihriban and I will be more than glad to come here and help her while you’re gone, it shouldn’t take long.” He urged. Sanem walked up, ” Help with what, Can, do you need to go to the office.” She asked. ” You can go, if you need to, don’t feel you can’t.” She spoke. ” What time is the meeting?” She spouted, putting her hands on her hips. He explained the details, and Aziz offered their help while he was gone. ” See, I’ll be fine, go, help them out.” She insisted.

Reluctantly he agreed to go, but it was totally against his better judgement. ” What about Yildiz, you know sometimes I’m the only one that she wants, and she can be quite the stinker if she wants to be.” He spouted, but the 3 insisted.

” Ok, I’ll go, but just the meeting and back, that’s all.” 

He really didn’t like the agency being so demanding on him. He wondered why the clients wanted him there.

Chapter 4

Emre and Deren hurried to the door of the agency to greet the group. ” Welcome, welcome, come in.” Deren expressed, extending her hand to the gentleman. He excepted it with pleasure and then turned to Emre, ” Mr Divit, it’s a pleasure to meet you,” he said nodding his head. “Please, its Emre, Mr. Erkem, follow me to the conference room.” He said, leading the way down the hall. “And your brother, will he be joining us? He asked. Emre still hadn’t heard from Can, to confirm that he would attend, so his answer would be vague. ” Can has had a life changing situation develop recently, so it may not be possible for him to be here today.” Emre explained. ” But we are hopeful.” Mr. Erkem seemed to accept the that as he took a seat. ” Well, normally It wouldn’t be a problem, but the owner has her heart set on dealing with Can himself.” He said, shifting nervously in his chair. ” Oh, so you aren’t the head of the company, so sorry, I miss understood.” Emre said, looking at Deren. ” And who is the owner of the company, if I might ask?” Deren spoke, tilting her head to one side. ” Yes, our owner is Ms. Gulden,” he said, ” It seems that she is a fan of Mr Divits and would like for him to model for the new line of jewelry that we have coming out.” She is aware of his style and his love of accessories, and this line would be perfect for him.” Mr. Erkem explained. Emre smiled, ” I’m afraid you will be disappointed if that’s the reason you wanted my brother here today, he isn’t the type to expose himself to the public.” Emre gave Deren a quick glance. Deren nodded, ” Yes I agree, Mr Divit would never agree to that, especially now.” She told him.

Can jumped out of his truck and sprinted into the agency, he always hated being late, but saying goodbye to Sanem and the babies had been harder than he expected. And the fact that Sanem was laughing at him didn’t make things easier. So, what if he had tears in his eyes as he kissed each one of them goodbye, so what if he had to go back three times to do it, that was his choice. He could still see her face as he hugged each of them, ” Can, my love, our only going to be gone a couple of hours, it will be ok.” She snickered. He gave extra attention to Yildiz, he knew she would be upset when he wasn’t there when she woke up. His mind was still back home with them as he hurried down the hall towards the conference room. CeyCey waved and called out to him, Can waved back and hurried on to the meeting. He knocked and opened the door, ” Good morning, I’m sorry that I’m late, but it has been a busy morning. He stated, extending his hand. “Hello, Can Divit, pleased to meet you.” He smiled, ” Yes, Mr Divit, I’m Mete Ekrem, the pleasure is mine.” He said shaking his hand. He nodded to Emre, and Deren, ” What have I missed,” he asked, taking a seat. Emre stood, taking charge of the meeting, ” Can they want us to supply the public with a new updated campaign on a new line of jewelry they have designed.” Mr. Erkem, would you like to fill him in on your proposal.” Emre said, giving Can the eye of beware. ” Yes, I would be happy to,” Me Erkem said, ” The owner of the company has been a fan of your work for some time now, and she would like to commission you to model our latest line of men’s jewelry.” In fact, it’s the only line of men’s jewelry of its kind, in the area. Can looked at Emre, ” Excuse me, but I am not a model, nor do I want to be. I am flattered at the offer but, my plate is overflowing at the moment with personal commitments.” He spouted, with a look annoyance. ” I’m sure we can find a more than suitable professional model to take care of this type of work.” Can announces, shifting in his seat. The thoughts running through his head, ” Is this the reason they wanted me here for this meeting.” What a waste of time.”  He stood to leave, ” Mr. Erkem, my brother and the creative director of the agency are both more than capable to take care of your company, we all are looking forward to working with you.” He reaches out to shake his hand. The gentleman returned the gesture, ” Ms. Gulden will be disappointed to say the least so don’t be surprised if she contacts you again.” He said, raising his eyebrows. Emre and Deren both stood with their mouths open, as Can left the meeting. He headed to the office area, to say hello to the few there that were his friends. CeyCey met him at the coffee bar, ” Canbey, good to see you, how are your children and Sanem?” He asked, pouring him a cup of tea. Can patted him on the back, ” they are all doing very good.” Sometime soon you will have to come and visit, I know Sanem would love for the babies to get to know the uncle CeyCey as quick as possible.” He said giving him a smile. 

Aziz and Mihriban were trying to take care of Yildiz, which was very upset at the moment. She was having to wait for Deniz to finish eating so it could be her turn. The bottle just never satisfied her and most of the time she rejected it completely. The only one that could coax her into taking it was her daddy, so grandpapa and grandma didn’t have a chance. Yildiz loved that time with her mommy. The routine seemed endless, as the older couple looked at each other over the changing table, what a respect they had for Sanem and Can, they had to have the best outlook on their lives. They had accepted this challenge of three babies at one time, as if it was nothing, and did it with ease. Sanem had passed Deniz to them at the changing table, after the burping and took the still fussy Yildiz, for her lunch. Sanem laughed, ” Listen here my dear, you have to learn to be patient, especially if it’s your brother, he takes his time, and you know it.” She lectured her, nuzzling her nose against her neck and kissing her. She always listened so Intently, with her eyes open wide, Sanem knew she would be the one she could depend on to know the rules. The one that would keep the other two in line, just like a big sister should. She was the oldest by 4 minutes, and she took that role seriously, always observing and taking everything in. The next one born, had been Ates, she was a little lazy about coming out, content to linger there as long as possible. She seemed to be dreaming about what was about to happen, but her baby brother Deniz, was more than anxious to arrive, and all but pushed her out of his way, with them coming almost simultaneously. All of them so different, so unique, and wonderful, just like their parents. With Yildiz finally full, changed, and ready to go down, they all flopped on the sofa, exhausted. Mihriban looked at Sanem, ” You know I have such a respect for you both, your patience, your love for each other, It’s so inspiring.” She said, as she wiped her forehead. Sanem nodded, ” Thank you for your help, this is the most joyful task that I have ever been given.” She said, holding her hand to her heart.

” With all the trials in our lives, to have this as our reward……

“Well, that shows that we were meant to be.”

Chapter 5

Sanem looked at her phone when she heard Can’s truck pull in, ” it’s only been an hour and a half, why is he home so quick. Aziz and Mihriban were busy fix some lunch for the three of them when Can came in, ” I’m back, how were things, are they all asleep? He asked wrapping his arms around Sanem and giving her a Can sized hug. Sanem kissed him on the neck, ” You weren’t gone very long, what happened.” She asked, as she poured the tea. ” Well, it was a complete waste of time, the owner of the company didn’t even show, and they wanted me to be a model.” He told them, totally disguised with the whole thing. Sanem squealed, ” A model, for their jewelry, oh…you would be perfect for that.” She said, covering her mouth with her hands. Can gave her a sideways look, ” Sanem, I’m not going to be a model, so get that out of your head.” He stated. “My job is right here, with you and our babies, so what did I miss.” He said rubbing his hands together. His dad and Mihriban relayed the mornings events to him, how Yildiz was terribly upset at the thought of waiting for her brother to get done, and how proud they were of the parents for being so organized and efficient. Can smiled, ” We had to be, or these babies would always be crying from hunger or a wet diaper. Sanem is a super mom, that’s all I’ve got to say.” He said, looking lovingly at her. 

Emre and Deren took all the information from Mr. Erkem and they set a time for the second meeting. They had 3 weeks to make their best campaign pitch and find a perfect model. Emre showed Mr. Erkem out, Deren had already begun to feel the pressure from it. ” Emre, if they wanted Can for this, nothing we do will probably be good enough.” She stated. Emre shook his head, ” I agree, but we’re going to put together a top­-notch campaign and hope for the best. She immediately gathered the creative team together for a meeting. They delivered all the information on the new company and the sample jewelry to the team. The jewelry in fact, did look like the things that Can would wear, they resembled the pieces he wore daily. Emre set out to find the perfect model, which he was pretty sure would be only way they would get this campaign. Someone that had the same charisma as his brother, and they had to hold the same mystery in their eyes as he. Actually agreed, Can would have been the perfect model.

By mid-afternoon, Aziz and Mihriban had gone back to their house and Can and Sanem were on their own again. But that’s the way they liked it, they seemed to give each other the strength to tend to the babies, and if they didn’t know what to do, you would never have known, they always seemed to do the right thing. They were natural born parents. Ates was the first to wake this time, she had a bit of a stomach problem. After pacing with her for a while and doing all the things they had heard to do, Sanem took a drop of her natural organic peppermint oil and put it into her water. She tried to give it to her in a bottle, but she didn’t like the nipple, so Sanem dipped her little finger into the mixture and let Ates suck it from it. Over and over, she did this, until the baby had enough, and it began to settle her stomach. Can watched her intently, he could do that too, he thought, if that ever happened and Sanem wasn’t there. She had such a way with them, an instinct they he didn’t have, it made him admire her even more. Ates was changed and ready for a little play time before bedtime. The other two had woke up during this time and Can had taken care of them with no problem. The blanket was spread on the floor and all three Divit children were laid down. They played with them, cooing and talking with them until their bedtime. The babies loved it, watching and listening to all the sounds from their parents, especially Yildiz. Of course, she always had her attention on her daddy, and he took a little bit more time with her, talking to her and explaining the ways of life. Sanem laughed at their conversation, ” Can, do you think she going to remember all these things you’re telling her.” She said, giving him a kiss of the cheek. He always tickled them with his beard, they all loved it except Ates, she would turn her face away, and make a squealing sound. How individually different they were, it made him scared to think about. 

It was still light outside, but it was their bedtime, so Sanem pulled the curtains and turned on the soft music they loved to listen to, while they quietly and gently gave them their nightly sponge bath and covered them with the lotion that Sanem made. It was a simple ritual that made both happy, so relaxing to them all. In a matter of minutes, the triplets were ready for sleep. Can too was ready to have a little alone time with his beautiful wife, the aroma of the cream always made him crazy, it was his first memory of her. They reset the music and tiptoed out of the room. They headed for the kitchen, ” Are you hungry, I’m starved,” she said reaching for one of the frozen meals that her mother and Melahat had made for them. Can shook his head, but he knew that wasn’t the only thing he was starved for, but first things first. He jumped in to help her, insisting she sat down and watch while he heated up the dinner and made a salad. ” It’s the least I can do for you, after you have given me such a wonderful gift.” He whispered into her ear, as he wrapped his arms around her waist. She turned, ” What gift, I didn’t buy you anything.” She said, scrunching up her face. He moved close to her face, so close the hair from his beard scratched her lips as he spoke, ” Not all gifts are from money, my love. You have given me three of the best gifts a person could ever want.” His lips covered hers, they were gentle at first, but quickly turned to a desire that heated her to the core. Her heart beat fast, just like the day before in the shower, this man could bring her to the point of no return in a matter of seconds. His lips parted from hers, but just barely, ” Sanem, you are my greatest gift, and I love you with all my heart.” He said, his voice dripping with emotion and it barely able to hear. She initiated the kiss that time, with demand and force, she found his tongue with hers. She felt him flinch, then attack it with a vengeance. His hands moved over every part of her body, all at once, it seemed. The goosebumps had risen to the top of her skin and she was in full “turned on”mode.

He picked her up and she wrapped her legs around his waist, without losing any contact from his delicious mouth. He walked around the counter and to the sofa, she pulled away from his lips, ” Can let’s go to the bed, and take our time.” She whispered, looking deeply into his eyes. 

He crumbled, just at the sight of her, ” Yes, Ok, whatever you want.” 

” Yes….take me to our bed, I want to make love.” She said, her body trembling like the first time.

Chapter 6

As he fell to the side of the bed, she let out a heavy sigh, ” My god Can, where did that come from.” She asked barely able to breath. She felt weak and she still trembled, as she brushed her hair back from her face. She smiled, ” I’ll take that every time, do you think you can deliver.” She asked, reaching over to touch his chest. His breathing was heavy and quick, ” If that’s what you want, I’ll die trying.” He said, turning to look at her, with that smug smile. He rolled over to her, his body pressed against hers, he slides his hands down her chest and stomach, it was coated with a thin layer of sweat. He continued, moving his hand between her legs, she turned towards him running her fingers through his hair. The heat from her warmed his hand, as he rubbed that spot that drove her crazy. He laid his head on her chest, feeling her breathing get harder and harder as her body moved in sync to him. She tilted her head back and arched her back, she knew what was coming next, and how good it was going to feel. He loved to watch her body accept him and welcome the feelings of his touch. She was close, he knew, but so was he, so he quickly rolled on top and let them join for that final eruption of love. That did it, he was done, as they clung to each other. They were barely coherent when they heard the first whimper from one baby. They both smiled, then a second one joined in as they both rolled out of the bed, Sanem grabbed her robe and Can put on his workout shorts. The look they shared could not have been any sweeter, just glad their children had waited until the coast was clear. 

Not realizing the time, it was time for all three to eat and be changed. Ates was the first one awake and ready to eat, ” Four and a half hours, really Sanem are you sure it was that long.” Can said, raising his eyebrows. ” Yes, babe, it was. She’s always on time to eat.” I think that’s a record for us too.”  She said giving him a wink. He smiled, ” That will give us something to work for……you know, trying to break that record.” All the babies ate quickly, and they changed them, and they were back in bed. The couple collapsed in the bed, not even thinking about that record. They needed to sleep now, before the next round of eating. Sanem’s inner clock woke her up about 15 minutes before she heard the first sound from the nursery. She watched her husband sleep, ” I should be up taking a shower,” she thought, ” Before they wake up and demand food from me.” But just watching him sleep made her feel so calm and happy. She climbed out of bed, her body aching from the night’s activities, she needed that shower badly. She hurried in the bathroom and jumped in the shower for a fast one. The water eased her sore muscles, it was amazing how out of shape one could get in a matter of months. But the lovemaking had turned out to be more than they either one expected, very exhilarating and long lasting, she thought, with a smile creeping across her face. 

As she turned off the water, she heard the sound of crying babies. Was Can still asleep, she wondered, quickly drying off and wrapping a towel around her head. She stepped out into the bedroom, Can was not in bed, then she heard him talking from the nursery, ” Come on guys, let’s not all freak out at once.” Mommies taking a shower so it’s just daddy for a minute.” He was explaining to them, but without much success. Ates had set up quite a wail and was making Yildiz agitated. Deniz was just pissed off altogether. As she walked into the nursery, she saw this huge, beautiful man trying so hard to calm these three tiny humans, Yildiz on one arm, trying to hold a bottle for Ates with the other hand, and gently shaking the crib with his foot to try and soothe Deniz. It was the sexist thing she had ever seen. She rushed in to help, ” Here babe, let me take this,” she said, reaching for the bottle and Ates. ” Oh, ok, they all started at once, I tried.” He said, shaking his head. She blew him a kiss, saying, ” You did great daddy, thank you.” If Yildiz was in her daddy’s arms, she was fine for a while, so he took Deniz in the other arm and gave him his bottle. Ates ate quickly and Sanem changed her and put her down, then took Yildiz from Can and gave her breakfast. Her oldest daughter never closed her eyes as she ate, she studied her momma, and listened to her every word. Can loved to watch them, he knew that little girl was special, she would lead that pack of Divits, as they got older.

He motioned to Sanem that he was going for a shower and then make breakfast for the two of them, as she took the time with her babies. With them all fed and changed and once again down for sleep, she finished in the bathroom. She could hear Can in the kitchen, cooking and singing along with the radio. Her life was just as she dreamed it, years ago, what she had written about…..that love that made her soul calm and her insides tremble with excitement. She had it…..her fairytale life, after all these years and all the fears of losing him, she had it.  She dressed quickly, so she could help him with the breakfast, just a loose t-shirt and yoga pants, it was easier to be able to feed them this way, but she wished she could dress up for him, as she used to. But for now, this was what he got. As she walked into the kitchen, he turned around, smiling and giving her that look of devouring, she could tell he didn’t care what she wore, he just loved her…..” It smells so good, what are you fixing.” She asked, walking up into his big hug. ” Your favorite…..food.”….He said laughing.  She slapped him on the arm, ” Ok, that’s enough, really what is it?” She asked. ” Omelets with veggies and toast, it good for you and you are going to love it.” He said, kissing her on the forehead. She shook her head in agreement, as she brewed their tea. He kept an eye on her, as she set the table, “What a sight,” he thought, ” She’s flawless, so graceful in her movements. She could feel his looks, making her feel good, was she supposed to have these feeling right her in the middle of the morning, with their three babies sleeping in the next room. She blushed slightly at the thoughts of the night before, but they really needed to be more careful, they had not used protection. That is all they needed was a surprise bundle of joy. He jarred her back from her daydream, as he sat her plate on the table, ” Eat it all, please, then we might see about breaking that record.” He whispered in her ear and nibbling on her earlobe.

She shuddered….” Can, we really won’t have that much time”….but every fiber of her being she screaming for it……..” I have laundry and I need to pump”…. he held his finger to her lips, ” I’ll help you.” He said, in a low gravelly voice. ” I’ll help you with everything”.”………….

She closed her eyes, ” How could she resist,” This man that held her heart in the palm of his hand.”

Chapter 7

With the breakfast on hold, Can wrapped his arms around her waist, picking her up and heading down the hall to the bedroom. They smothered each other with kisses, feeling the pressure of the three sleeping babies in the room down the hall, that could wake up at any moment.  They both knew that this was not going to be the record setting encounter they had the day before, but when the need arises, you must take what you can get. It was a frantic, ripping off the clothes, and getting down to business. It takes much to bring them to the point of conclusion, and they were left breathless again, sprawled on their bed. Can looked at her, ” Sorry babe, that wasn’t as romantic as it could have been, but sometimes it’s hard for me to control myself around you.” He stated, gently moving the loose hair away from her face. ” It was more than romantic, it was almost primal, and I loved it.” She said, scratching his beard with her fingers. He grabbed her hand and kissed her fingers, ” You are fantastic mommy, I guess we’ll have to get use to these quick ones.” He smirked, sealing it with a kiss. 

With the breakfast cold, Can tried to warm the omelets, but that only made them worse, so it was cold toast and tea, to hold them until lunch. Just as the first cry came from Deniz, Can’s phone rang, she motioned to take the call as she hurried to the nursery. She had caught him in time, before he woke the other two. He was soaked thru and needed a complete bath, so she ran warm water in the bathroom sink and sponged him off. He was dry and happy, and ready to eat. She decided to take him to the living room to eat, away from the 2 sleeping babies. As she entered the room, she heard Can, ” I’m quite aware of the value that your company would bring to the agency, and I will be more than happy to accommodate you company in any other way, but modeling is out of the question.” He spouted firmly. “My responsibilities are to my family, and I intend to be here for them as much as possible.” Looking around to see Sanem standing there, he shook his head and rolled his eyes. She smiled and sat down to take care of Deniz. Can ended the call, with a thank you, but no thank you, making the person on the other end a bit more demanding. Sanem was surprised at his insistence of not modeling, she knew he would be good at it. Can was agitated with the call, ” I had already told him that it was out of the question, and he called again, why.” He spoke. Sanem said quietly, ” Well, why don’t you want to do it?” It might be a good opportunity for you and the agency.” She asked. ” Sanem, I’m not a model, I couldn’t do it.” He stated, throwing up his hands. ” Besides, I don’t like being backed in a corner, or being forced.” He said, as one of the other Divit babies decided it was time to get up. He quickly got up, walking towards the nursery, ” This is my job now, and that’s all I want to do.” He stated. 

Emre and Deren, had already been on the phone with Mr. Erkem, and the answer from Can did not set well with the owner of the company. They both knew how stubborn Can could be about things like this, so to get him to change his mind would be almost impossible. ” Deren, don’t get your hopes up on this campaign, without Can it probably won’t happen.” Emre told her, after hanging up from Mr. Erkem, and Deren agreed. ” Ms. Gulden, why did she have her heart set on Can, what did she have to gain,” he thought. But whatever the reason, he did not think Can would agree to any of it. They had found a couple of very suitable models, both were open and able to start work immediately, if the company agreed. One was a bit younger than Can, but had the same stature and features, but the hair was short, and he was very groomed, with no beard. The other was a bit more rugged, but his head was shaved and again, no beard. Emre just wanted to meet with the owner, just to see what she has in mind. So, Mr. Erkem was to call back with a meeting time, if it was possible. So, they carried on with the campaign as normal, hoping for the best. 

Can had taken care of Yildiz and Ates, while Sanem made them some lunch. a simple grilled turkey sandwich, that is hard to mess up. It would be time for their play time on the floor after they had their lunch, that always tired them out and they would be ready for bed. Can had made three trips back and forth from the nursery, to bring in the bouncy seats and the blanket, then the babies, Deniz and Ates first, then Yildiz. He carefully put each one in their seats, fastening them securely, and then they sat down for their lunch. They loved the time in their seats, it let them move around and feel their movements. Can talked to them constantly as they ate, Yildiz was the one that listened intensely to the sound of his voice, her eyes searching for it, wide and filled with amazement. The other two amused themselves with the feel of their own fingers in their mouths. Sanem loved to see the different expressions they each had. She wanted to grab her notebook and write down all the things she felt and saw but her time was so limited, sometimes she had to do it in the middle of the night. But she still logged everything that happened, she knew they would appreciate it one day. With the lunch finished, they both crawled up on the blanket between the babies and followed their daily routine of family time. 

Emre was excited to get the return call from Mr. Erkem, informing them that Ms. Gulden would be able to meet with them the next day at 1:00, If that was acceptable to all parties, but she did expect Can to be there. Emre made the call to Can, ” Abi, I have good news, Ms. Gulden has agreed to meet with us tomorrow at 1:00, but you have to be here.” He said, dreading to hear his response. ” Emre, I told Mr. Erkem that my place is here, and I’m out going to model.” He stated, sighing at the thought of leaving the house. “Can, just come and see what the deal is, you can still turn it down, but at least heard them out.” He suggested. Sanem heard as he refused to go, ” Maybe it would be the right thing to do,” she stated, ” That way you can tell her your decision to her face.” Can threw his head back, ” Ok, ok, I’ll go, but Emre, do you have another option for them to pick from, did you get some other models lined up? He asked. He told him they had photos of two choices for them to choose from. ” Good, then they can pick one of them.” He stated, ” I’ll see you tomorrow at 1:00.” And I don’t want any surprises.” He spouted. 

Sanem smiled, giving him her support. “Why did she just urge him to go, when that was the farthest thing from what she wanted.”  

” I always hated it when other women tried to take control of him, because he was to blind to the fact.” But I have to trust him”…….I have to trust that he loves his family……

Chapter 8

The evening turned out to be a disaster, after their family time with the babies, they put them down for their naps, but they were not peaceful naps. They were fretting and whining until the early morning hour, leaving Sanem exhausted. He helped with what he could, but about 3:00am he passed out in the sofa. Ahh, the trials of parenthood, it had reared its ugly head, making her doubt her ability to cope with it all. Maybe he was right, they needed help. The first ray of light was visible when Sanem managed to get all three down. What had happened, they seemed to be so uncomfortable and her breast milk seemed to make it worse. She turned up the volume on the monitor and fell across the bed, all she needed was a good hour of sleep, or so she thought.

It was 8:30 when she heard the first piercing cry. She bolted like a bullet shot from a gun, straight to the nursery. She rubbed her eyes, trying to focus, ” There, there, Ates my baby. It’s ok.” She picked her up, trying to soothe her. The baby squirmed and pulled her knees up to her stomach, clearly in discomfort. Sanem took her to their bed, to isolate her crying, and gently started to massage her stomach, over and over. It seemed to help, and she started to calm down. ” It must have been something I ate.” Sanem thought, trying to recall her eating from the day before. She held her hand over Ates stomach, feeling her relax and ease into sleep. Sanem closed her eyes, ” I’ll just rest for a minute, I’m so tired.” She thought, as she drifted off to sleep. But her rest was short lived, as Deniz was the next to release his fury. She opened her eyes, not believing she had gone so soundly to sleep, with Ates lying next to her. There was a rule they had agreed on from the very beginning, no sleeping with the babies in their bed. She jumped up, grabbed Ates and stumbled down the hall to the nursery. Getting her back in her bed, she reached for Deniz. He had the same reactions as Ates, so she knew it had something to do with breast milk, but how did she fix it. The crying of Deniz had woke Can and he rushed in the door, ” Sanem, are they still at it? He asked rubbing his face to wake up. She nodded, on the verge of tears, ” Yes Can, I think it’s my breast milk, something I ate is not agreeing with them. ” She spouted, trying to calm the baby. But I don’t know what to do to fix it.” She cried, letting the tears from no sleep and pure frustration, flow down her cheeks. He took Deniz, ” Come on babe, let’s go sit down, have you had any sleep.” He asked. ” About 3 hours, before Ates started crying.”  She mumbled, leaning against him for support. He propped Deniz up on his lap and Sanem explained what she had done to Ates to get her relief. So Can calmly and patiently rubbed his son stomach, feeling the heat from his hand, it eased the cramping and the baby begin to calm down. 

Sanem took stock of what breast milk she had pumped the day before and discarded it. As Deniz slept on his daddy’s lap, she called her mother. ” Mom, what do I do to get of the milk in my system, it has made the babies very sick, so I don’t want to breast feed.” She said, trying to hide her disappointment in herself. Her mother was more than supportive, trying to ease her fears, “My dear, don’t take this to heart, you haven’t done anything wrong.” Stomach aches are common, so you have to learn what to do to calm them and do it.” She said, feeling for her daughter. ” Do you need me to come and help you, have you slept.” She asked. Sanem had never heard such beautiful words, ” Yes momma, I would love it if you would come.” She sighed. She smiled, ” Ok my daughter, I will be on my way in minutes.” Her mother said. Can was relieved, he had that meeting and the thought of leaving her alone with the babies, already had him worried.

They sat together, watching Deniz sleep. ” Can I think it was the cheese I ate yesterday,” she said, still trying to make sense of what had happened. ” I ate quite a bit of it, while I was making our sandwiches.” I’m sure that’s what it was.” She concluded, ” but why didn’t Yildiz have the same reaction as the others.” She asked. Can traced her face with his fingers, ” It’s ok my love, they are fine and your moms coming to help so you can get some sleep.” She still felt guilty, but she knew what not to do again. Can had put Deniz down and was taking care of Yildiz, ” Sanem, go take a shower at calm down, when your mom gets here, you can go to bed.” I have that meeting then I’ll be back and take over.” He demanded. She stood her tiptoes, kissing his face all over, ” You are a wonderful husband, and I love you.” She spoke. He smiled, ” Don’t forget that” he stated, ” I’m going to hold you to that.”  She smiled, as she danced into the bathroom. His heart was happy, he had all he ever wanted, so why would he need to be a model.” He laughed to himself.  Within an hour of talking to her, Mevkibe was at their door, ” MomMevkibe, come in.” Can said, giving her a big hug. ” Thank you for coming, I know Sanem will be so happy your here.” We have them all down for now, but it’s just a matter of time.” He said, laughing. Sanem greeted her mom with a huge hug and kiss, ” Thank you for coming.” I have never felt so useless in my life, as I did last night.” She revealed. 

Emre and Deren paced in the foyer, waiting for the group to arrive, ” Where’s Can?” Deren asked, shooting a look at Emre. He shrugged his shoulders, ” All I know is, he said he would be here.” He spoke. It was 12:50 when the group arrived, ” Welcome, Ms. Gulden, Mr. Erkem.” Emre said, extending his hand to welcome. They nodded to Deren, ” Ms. Gulden, is our pleasure to have you here.” She spoke. Deren has a look of shock on her face, ” The research she had done on her and the company said that Ms. Eda Gulden was a 48-year-old widow and had been left the jewelry business by her late husband. If this woman was 48 years old, then she was a miracle of modern science. She was as flawless as a 20-year-old, long black hair and a deep olive skin, that looked as soft as butter. Deren was in awe of her. Her stature was tall and slender, like that of a model, yet it was natural, stunning was not enough to say. Can was a couple of minutes behind the group, as he came in the door, the woman’s face lit up, in a devilish sort of way. Can shook hands with Mr. Erkem, then turned to Ms. Gulden, holding out his hand. ” It’s a pleasure, Ms. Gulden, I’m Can Divit.” He said, giving that smile that effected every woman around. Her eyes devoured him, it made him uncomfortable, but he stood his own. Her hand stayed with his until he pulled it away, ” Please have a seat, sorry I’m running late, we had a bit of a drama night with the triplets last night.” He stated, as straight forward as he could. 

” No, let’s have an understanding right away,” he thought, as he felt the heat from her look.

” The modeling job is out of the question; nothing will upset his family.”……

Chapter 9

The vision of Sanem entered his head, ” He wouldn’t let this happen,” usually he didn’t notice things like her looks towards him, he was quite use to that, but this woman was sending out all kinds of messages, without opening her mouth. He was quite uncomfortable, shifting around in his chair. She hadn’t said more than a few words the whole meeting, just looks, the ones that would make anyone blush, even Can Divit. Emre was aware of it, seeing how it was affecting his brother, so he tried to divert her attention, ” Ms. Gulden, we have a couple of very good candidates for the ad, will you take a look.” He said, reaching for the portfolios. She held up her hand, ” That won’t be necessary, I’m looking at the model I want for my jewelry designs.” She said, her eyes drilling into Can. ” But, these are very good models, I’m sure they would do an exceptional job.” He ordered. Can looked away from her, but felt her eyes still looking at him. ” I’m flattered, but it isn’t possible for me to model your line, for one I’m not a model, and my family comes first.” So, my answer would have to be no.” He said looking straight in her eyes. She smiled, ” What does your family have to do with it,” she stated, ” I’m sure your wife would want you to be successful, right.” And this could prove to be very successful.” She said, her tone dripping with innuendos. Can knew this woman wouldn’t take no for an answer, so they looked at Emre with that, “I’m out of this one” look. Can stood, nodded, ” If you will excuse me, I have a very important date and I can’t be late. She nodded and smiled smugly, ” Of course, we can continue this conversation at a later date, maybe over dinner?” She said, touching him on the shoulder.

Mevkibe had taken over, letting Sanem get some much-needed sleep. They babies were happy and content for the moment and she had decided to make their dinner for them. She knew they both could use the rest. She knew Cans favorites and was more than happy to make them. All three of them were on the floor, listening while their grandmama was cooking. She told them stories about their mother and all the trouble she got into and laughed at them all. It was barely 2:00 when Can came home, ” Son you are home early, I didn’t expect you until later. How was the meeting.” She asked. ” It was fine, it turned out, they didn’t need him after all.” He said avoiding her eyes. He quickly dived down on the floor with three babies, giving them lots of kisses. ” Is Sanem asleep? He asked as he cuddled with Ates. Mevkibe told him she was, but she should be up soon. Can was still thinking about the woman from the jewelry company, how brazen she was. He never let woman like that get to him before, but she seemed to have a more than obvious agenda. Sanem had been through a lot because of the women that tried to gain his attention, and he wouldn’t allow her to be hurt again. Even though she never had anything to worry about, all those other women couldn’t make him forget about her. 

Emre and Deren paced back and forth in his office, ” Well now we know what she expects, and we know that Can’s not going to give it to her, so where do we go from here.” Deren stated, still appalled at Ms. Guldens actions. Leila came in,” How did the meeting go?” She asked, giving Emre a peck on the cheek. ” It’s bad Leila, really bad.” He spoke. ” It seems this woman is just a little interested in my brother, and not just for a model, if you understand what I’m saying.” Emre spouted, pacing with his hands on his hips. Leila’s mouth dropped, ” Doesn’t she know he’s married?” She asked. ” Yes, Can made that quite clear, but she seemed unaffected by it, it made Can very uncomfortable, so he left.” Deren said. Leila smiled, ” Good for him, they have both been through a lot over things like that.” She replied, shaking her head. Emre and Deren both looked at each other, ” It doesn’t look like we’ll get this campaign, so let’s move on to the other one.” Emre stated.

Can had never been so thankful for his mother-in-law as he was now. With having such a bad night and then the disgusting meeting, the last thing he wanted to do was cook. He felt like he needed to hold each one of the babies, and especially Sanem, tightly to him, and not let them go, she had made him feel threaten. Sanem came in looking refreshed and rested, ” Well Can, your back early, I thought you would be there the rest of the day.” She said, kneeling to kiss her husband. In an impulsive move, Can pulled Sanem down next to him and wrapped her up in a huge hug, covering her neck with kisses. Mevkibe cleared her throat, ” Ok kids, let’s not have that, not in front of me and the babies.” She said, acting embarrassed. They all laughed, as the babies all let out their high pitches screeching. Sanem asked, ” How was the meeting, did they convince you to be the next big model? She asked, giving him a wink. His heart sank, did he tell her the truth or did he lie,” No, they decided to go a different way.” He stated, looking at her in a way she didn’t understand. ” Well, that’s their loss, you would have been the perfect and most gorgeous model ever.” She spouted flamboyantly.  He laughed, ” I hardly think so, my dear.” He said, giving her a hug. Feeling so thankful for her and all the love she gave him. As right on cue, Deniz let out his wail of hunger, with both parents’ attention focusing back on their duties of love. Sanem scooped him up and started to the nursery, when Ates decided to join in a chorus with her brother, can laughed, grabbing Ates. ” Ok, my little flower, we won’t leave you out, but it will have to be the bottle for you, my abilities are not as advanced as your mothers.” He said, pinching her nose. And as in true fashion of the Divit triplets, Yildiz wouldn’t be left out either, or demanded her daddy. Mevkibe shook her head, taking Ates from Can, ” Here, I’ll take this one and you take Yilly, she won’t have it any other way you know.” The grandmama said, following Sanem to the nursery. Can picked up his oldest daughter, ” Yilly, huh, I like it, how about you? He said, as she grabbed his beard, cooing, as if she approved of the nickname. He kissed her in the forehead, ” He wouldn’t let anything hurt them, nothing, if it was in his power, his babies would never experience what he did as a child.” He thought.

They would always know how much he loved them…

SANEM, she would always know how much he loved her……

Chapter 10


Sanem was sorry to see her mother go, but she had her husband to take care of too, so she gave them all lots of kisses, and got in the taxi. She promised she would be back in a few days to help her again if it were just with the cooking. Can was grazing in the kitchen, devouring the delicious things that his mother-in-law has made for them. ” Man, she made some delicious dishes Sanem, do you want me to fix you a plate? He asked. He noticed the change in her mood, but wasn’t sure why, ” Are you ok babe,” what happened” he asked her, pulling her I close to him. ” Tell me sweetie, what’s wrong?” He looked her in the eyes. ” Can, why did you not want do the modeling for the jewelry company, and I want the truth.” She demanded, folding her arms across her chest. He hung his head, she always read him like a book, ” It’s just not for me, ok, I don’t want to be away from home that much and I just don’t see the reason for it.” He stated, reaching for more food. Sanem was looking at him with that sideways look, ” What was the woman that owns the company like, is she married? She asked, as she made herself a plate.           ” She was older, but I don’t think she is married, she’s a widow. She really didn’t say much.” 

Emre threw his hands up in the air, ” Leila why did you call her.” He spouted; sorry they had even considered the jewelry campaign. Leila stomped her foot, ” Because she’s my sister and she had a right to know, that’s why.” She spouted back to him. Emre demanded to know what she told her, ” You did tell her that Can left as soon as he noticed her interest in him, didn’t you.” He asked. Leila shook her head, ” I did, but still, she should know if there’s another woman after your man.” Don’t you agree?” She spewed, daring him to deny her statement. Deren walked in the office, ” Whats wrong, I can hear you down the hall.” She spoke. Leila explained their conversation, and that she had called Sanem and told her about Ms. Gulden. Deren slapped her hands together, ” Good, I was thinking about doing that myself, I’m glad you did.” She spoke. Emre knew he was outnumbered, so he agreed it was the right thing to do. ” So, what are you going to do about the campaign, are you going to give it up or not. I don’t think we need that kind of people around.” Leila announced, ready to fight for her sister. ” I think the proposal is null and void at this point, with Can literally walking out on the meeting.” Emre said, ready to put the discussion to rest. Leila was satisfied with his answer, nodding her head she turned to leave his office. She stopped and looked at Emre, ” I hope that someone would do the same for me, if there was a woman threatening the safety of my home.” She stated, looking at Emre for assurance.

Sanem cleared the table from their dinner plates, ” Can, what are you looking at on your computer? She asked, curious as to what made him feel a hundred miles away. Can looked up, ” Just looking at some nanny services, I think we need some help, on a more regular basis, don’t you? I know your mom is more than willing to help, and so is dad and Mihriban, but we need a professional.” He said tapping the seat beside him, for her to join him. She sat down, ” Look, we can have someone just for the babies, or someone that helps with the housework and cooking, what do you think.” I just want you to be able to go take a shower or something when you want to, and not have to wait for someone to come over.” He said, reaching for her hand. ” So, are thinking about returning to work on a full-time basis, and not being here with us.” She asked, feeling her stomach jump up in the throat, and the tears burn her eyes. ” No, not at all, but at some point, I will have to go to the agency on occasion, and I would feel better if there was someone here to help you.” I am not going back until I absolutely have to my love, I love spending all my time with you, and my babies,” You’re not getting rid of me so easy.” He said, looking at her, seeing the tears starting to form. ” Hey, babe, what’s wrong, I didn’t mean to make you cry.” Ok, we won’t talk about it now, we’ll just keep on doing what we’ve been doing, it’s fine.” He said, wrapping his arms around her tightly. He felt her body melt into his and felt her insides tremble as the tears came. She tried to keep the tears back, but all the emotions from what Leila had told her, and the memories of all the other women, made her feel inferior, and now she was barely able to take care of herself. She had never really thought about it until now, what he must think, looking at her. She barely had time to comb her hair, let alone put makeup on, but he had never been one to like a lot of artificial beauty.

He held her until he felt her relax, ” Ok, are you better, we don’t have to do this now, I just wanted to checkout some things, that’s all.” He said, closing his computer and laying it to the side. ” What’s going on Sanem, I know you to well for you to tell me, nothing.” He looked into her eyes, that feeling of protector filled him, she was everything to him, and if she was hurting then he was hurting. ” Tell me.” He begged. She closed her eyes, ” It’s stupid, I know, but I feel so ugly right now, just like I’m barely together sometimes. I do not want you to regret me, or the fact we had all these babies at one time, or the fact you have to help me so much, or…. He held his finger up to her lips, ” Stop, stop it now.” I would never regret one thing in my life now, it’s all that makes me breath and my heartbeat.” He said, wiping the tears that remained on her cheeks. ” What has brought this on, you know that’s not true.” He said quietly, his face resting against hers. She gently scratched his beard, ” I know, but when you didn’t tell me about Ms. Gulden, and her intense interest in you, I thought you were flattered by it.” She said, moving back to look at his face. ” Who told you, did Emre, or was it Deren.” He said, instantly feeling shamed by her feelings. She shook her head, ” it doesn’t matter who did, it only matters that you didn’t.” She said, closing her eyes to keep from looking at him. She was embarrassed at her feelings, but she had been though a lot, when it came to this and the fact, he kept it from her, made it seem more than it was. 

He had vowed not to hurt her again, like he had in the past, when it came to the women. He knew how it made her feel, so he had to tell her, ” I’m sorry, I should have told you, but it was such a shock to me, I just wanted to forget it.” He said, stroking her hand with his fingers…..

She laid her head on his shoulder, ” I can handle anything, if you are open and tell me.” But I want to hear it from you.” She spoke. 

He kissed her head……he still had a lot to learn from this woman, and he wanted to learn it all……….

Chapter 11


Why did he not know these things about her, this was her make-up, her spirit and her soul. She would have understood if he had told her about that overly attentive jewelry company owner, but he didn’t trust her enough to do that, she had to hear it from someone else. All he tried to do was protect her from hurt, he knew how she felt about the other women that had plagued him in his life, although they meant nothing to him. “The truth Can, that’s all you need to remember, tell her the truth.” He screamed to himself, as he held her. He yearned to make love to her, but he knew she would much rather him soothe her by holding her and just being there.  The sun was going down and they knew the babies would be up soon for their evening feeding. They had their routine, the feeding, and their bath and a good relaxing massage with the cream that their mommy made. That was their time together, he always looked forward to it. 

Can and Sanem went down the hall to the nursery, they wanted to get everything setup for their baths. It took a while for the process, but it all depended on who woke up first. Deniz was the one that wanted to play more during the bath time, but absolutely loved the massage part of it. Ates wanted to eat right away, that was the most important time for her, but the massage from her momma always made her happy. Yildiz was the most serious, she loved the feeding time, it allowed her that moment of alone time with mom, but the bath and massage was more of a learning experience for her. She listened so closely to every word that her parents said to her, and to her sibling for that matter, you could almost she her filing all the information away her tiny brain. Her daddy’s voice was the most stimulating for her, it made her pay more attention and her reaction to it was much more obvious. It made Sanem so happy to see the two together, they were like two peas in a pod. ” Ok Yilly, let’s get this bath over with.” Can said, taking her from her mother, after the feeding time was over. Can always gave her the bath, and Sanem gave the massage. ” Time to get all clean and ready for the massage, you know that men love for their women to smell good.” He said looking at Sanem and giving her a wink. She smiled, knowing the importance that the smell of her cream had on him.

This routine took almost 2 hours, but they loved every minute of it. With them all feed, bathed, and relaxed to a coma stage with the massage, they put each of them in their beds, turned on their favorite music to listen to and lowered the light to very soft glow. They stood at the door looking at their most valued possessions in the world. Can put his arm around Sanem, ” This is why I didn’t take that modeling job my love, I might miss getting to do this with you every night.” He whispered in her ear. She felt that shiver run down her body, the one she got when she thought she couldn’t love him more…. but did. She smiled at him, ” Thank you.” She spoke. Can hugged her a little tighter, ” For what?” He asked, kissing her on top of the head. She answered in an instant, ” For loving us, all of us. You make us the happiest family in the world.” She kissed his cheek, but he turned his head to meet her lips with his. Those sweet, tempting lips that drove him crazy, that made him want more than a kiss. That spark of desire that was always there, flamed up to a blazing fire, with just a kiss. He would never be ready for the effect she had on him, it always seems to take him by surprise, like it was something new and different, but yet it was the most recognizable think in his life. She filled him with that desire to live, and to experience all the things they were designed for. He had been led to this road by her love, and he would travel it with an open heart, full of love. 

He led her to their bedroom, ” Sanem, I’m sorry I didn’t tell you about that woman, but I didn’t want to hurt you.” He said, moving her hair from around her neck so he could kiss it. She welcomed him, moving in for a more intimate encounter. She wanted to feel his body next to hers, feel that soft firmness of his abs, the touch of his beard slightly brushing against the face, his breath slowly and steadily warming her skin, these were the things that turned her on. She trusted him more than anything, but that hadn’t been the point, they had vowed to always tell each other the truth, no matter how painful. Since the very rocky beginning to their fairytale love affair, and the lies she had been forced to tell, they promised to be open and honest, but he hadn’t been. This whole marriage thing took a lot of work, he thought, as he tried to make her feel better, but he would work as hard as he could for the rest of his life, just to have her next to him. He stroked her hair, he needed her like nothing else in his life. She moaned with satisfaction as he let his hands slid down her back and to the round fullness of her hips, his heart started beating harder and his breathing was more shallow and not as easy. She whispered his name, almost undetectable, but he heard it, ” Can, I need you.” He heard. The removal of their clothes had become a part of their lovemaking, it stimulated them both especially Can. Her hands on him set him on fire, and she knew just how to do it. He was frozen in a state of hypnotic splendor, as she unbuttoned his shirt, her face so close to him, he could feel the air she breathed, making him have goosebumps. She felt each one as she slid the shirt from his broad shoulders, her hands gliding over that taunt skin. The shirt fell to the floor, she remained so close she couldn’t see his face. Her hands found the button on his pants, she didn’t fumble with it, she slowly slipped the button out of the buttonhole, her mouth gently sliding down his chest. Her lips parted and her breathing becoming deeper and louder, as she let her tongue barely touch his skin. He tasted like nothing she had ever tasted before; his body had developed a thin layer of sweat caused by her delightful display of undressing him. She could devour him and never think a thing about it, how he made her feel was not anything she could describe with words, but it was like she became someone else. He stared at her, as she lowered his pants down to the floor, this was something new for him, even after 2 years of marriage, she still had to be the most exciting woman he had ever known. His body jerked with anticipation, as she made her way back up his body, slowly running her hands up his legs, he quickly stepped out of his pants and kicked them to the side. Still not looking at his face, she felt and saw the effects she was having on him. She felt his eyes on her, as she slid the straps of her dress from her shoulders, letting her dress fall quickly to the floor in a heap.

She slowly raised her eyes to meet his gaze, ” Can, this and the truth is all I need in my life.” She whispered.

His eyes filled with tears, ” You have them both, from now on.” He said softly. 

Chapter 12

Sanem woke startled, ” What time is it.” she thought, her mind in a fog. She looked at the clock, 3:45, the babies hadn’t woken up to eat yet. She climbed out of the bed and hurried down the hall, almost afraid to look. Her mind was going off on a fit of terror, with her imagining all sorts of things. She pushed the half open door to look inside, her heart jumped, as she saw Can sitting there feeding Ates, with Deniz laying long ways in his lap, watching. He was whispering to her in her ear, and she was mesmerized at what he was saying. She would never get tired of seeing this, here was this huge muscular man, in only his boxers, his hair flowing down over his shoulders, looking totally like a god from Greek mythology, rubbing noses with his little daughter. It was the most perfect thing she had ever seen. Her mind played back the events from a few hours before, the raw desire they had lived through, made her shudder at how good it made her feel as she relive it in her mind. Was this the same man, the one that took her on the most unbelievable ride of her life, he was now a devoted daddy, trying to make his babies laugh. He looked up see her there, ” Hi, I didn’t want to wake you just yet, so I thought I would do it myself.” He said smiling at her. She sat down next to him, ” You’re doing great, my love.” Where’s Yilly,” she asked. ” She’s already done, fed and changed and back down.” He stated, quite proud of himself. 

All the babies were fed and dry, content to finish out their night of sleep. Sanem had gone to the kitchen to brew some tea, when Can walked up behind her, ” Are you ready to go back to bed.” He asked, rubbing his hands up and down on her arms. She leaned her head back against his chest, ” I think I will drink some tea first, how about you.” She spoke. She handed him a cup of tea and headed to the sofa. He followed her, glad to spend this time with her alone. These moments seemed to be far between, and they missed just the closeness of it. She remembered when most of her time was spent outside in the garden, now she was always listening for the slightest sound from the nursery. She leaned her head on his shoulder, ” Thank you for taking care of them this morning,” she said. He smiled, ” I don’t think it’s quite morning yet, but you’re more than welcome.” He replied, kissing her on the top of the head. ” Come on let’s go back to bed, your day will start early enough, so let’s get some more sleep.” He suggested, taking the teacup from her hand. She followed him back to bed, but the need to sleep wasn’t there for her. Can was out in a matter of seconds, leaving her alone with her thoughts. She hadn’t written in a couple of weeks, the time was always filled with something else, but her notebook seemed to be calling her to the garden. She slipped out of bed, wrapped her most comfortable cardigan around her, grabbed her notebook and the monitor and went to the garden. The lights were still strung there from their wedding, and always shined their light making this area very inviting. Her mind was full of her life and all that her days consisted of. Her pen could not write fast enough to get everything down on paper, it all came to fast. She didn’t know how much she had missed this, her escape, this was the definition of herself. She wrote everything that had happened since the last time she had visited her notebook. ” It was so much.” She thought, ” How did they do it all, and it would, more than likely get to be more, as the children get older. How her life had changed from the first book, their love had been so hard to hold on to, but just their determination to do so made her proud of them. Would she read their life to their children as they grew up, she thought, ” Yes, I definitely will. They will know the heartache and joy that her and their dad had gone through, and how they never gave up on their one and only love. 

The day had started, with the sun beaming out from around the trees. It was almost time for them to be up again, but her time had been well spent. She had written pages of her memories down in her notebook, all her thoughts and dreams along with them. She first whimper from the nursery pulled her thoughts from her writing, back to her life at hand. She was needed, they called her, drawing her back to her heart. She quickly ended her writing and hurried to their room before they woke Can. Deniz was fussing about, so she picked him up, changed him and started to feed him. He was always ready to eat, but more than that, he wanted to feel her. He was so much like his dad, his little hands stroked her skin as he ate, his eyes giving her that look that made her melt. She smiled at him, talking softly as he ate, ” You will be the woman slayer, there won’t be a girl or woman around that can resist you, just like you father.” She said, tracing his face with her finger. He flinched at her touch, but soon closed his eyes, enjoying this special time with his mom. He fell asleep as he ate, but she continued to hold him, she felt so close to him like this, and she knew one day he wouldn’t want her to do this. The rustling from Yildiz convinced her to put Deniz back to bed and focus on her oldest daughter. It was very seldom that Yildiz was as vocal as the other two. She was willing to wait for mom, but if she sensed daddy there, she would demand his attention. So strong and serious, along with curious, she could see her running the agency someday, probably all by herself. An advertising prodigy, if you will, guided by her dad and her uncle. She was so excited to know what life had in store for her special children, the ones she fought so hard for and waited for them to all be together.

His phone woke him, he wasn’t in any mood to talk to his brother but knew he should. ” Emre, what makes you call so early in the morning?” He asked, rubbing his eyes to focus, noticing Sanem wasn’t in bed. ” Good morning Abi, how are things?” He asked, dreading to get to the point. ” It’s all good, what’s going on.” He replied as he crawled out of bed. ” Well, it seems Ms. Gulden would like another meeting with you, and she’s very adamant about it.” He stated. Can fell back on the bed. ” Emre just tell her I am not interested; how hard can that be.” He spouted, feeling his anger rise. Emre sighed, ” Well, she is being very persuasive, it could be worth a lot of money for the agency, and for you as well.” What do you say?” He asked, hoping Can would reconsider. Can walked down the hall to the nursery, just as Sanem was putting Yilly back in her bed, he watched them as they had their time together. He stepped back in the hall, ” Ok Emre, if she’s so adamant about another meeting, this one will be on my terms.” He said firmly. ” 

” Tell her I’ll be more than happy to meet with again, but it will have to be at our home.” He spoke. ” I won’t take the time away from our routine to meet anywhere else.” 

Sanem smiled, overhearing the conversation, ” I think he finally understands.” She whispered quietly; her heart filled with love for him.

Chapter 13

The day had started with such a quietness, it made her wonder what was about to happen. She like the feeling of being predictable, or being able to take everything for granted, but Can was just the opposite. He loved to be spontaneous, frivolous and ” taking a chance” seemed to be his middle name. So, for him to invite this lady to their home, was a spontaneous thing to do, but she liked it. He turned to see her standing in the doorway of the nursery, ” So are we having company today, or was that a bluff.” She asked, walking by him slowly, tracing her finger across his chest. He smiled, ” I’m not sure, I guess we’ll find out.” Are you upset about it?” He asked, holding on to her arm as she walked by. ” No not at all, it was a very smart move, I get to see what I’m up against.” She smirked, giving him a wink. He threw his head back, ” Oh my god Sanem, you’re not serious are you, it’s nothing like that.” He spewed, as he pulled her up close to him. ” Don’t even think anything like that, because it’s not possible, there’s no competition when it comes to you.” He said, firmly kissing her lips, letting her know he was serious. She moved closer to him, ” There better not be, I really don’t like competition, it brings out the evil in me.” She said, biting at his bottom lip. He smiled slightly but wasn’t quite sure if she was kidding or not. 

He peeked his head in the nursery to make sure they were all taken care of, before following her to the kitchen. She was making tea, but her last words still rang in his head, ” Sanem, just how evil do you get, I’ve never seen that side of you before.” He asked, rubbing his beard. She smiled, ” You’ll know it when you see it, my dear. She said, going to sit on the sofa. He stared at her, still not sure of the entire situation. ” How about some breakfast?” He spouted, jumping up from his chair. She nodded, turning her head to smile at his actions. It took about 2 hours for Emre to relay the message to Can, ” Ms. Gulden would be delighted to visit you at your home, she said.” Are you sure about this Abi, I mean, is Sanem ok with it.”? He asked, still shocked at Cans proposal. Can was watching Sanem, sitting in the garden writing, something he hadn’t seen her do in several days, ” Yes Emre, I’m sure and Sanem is fine with it. Maybe this lady will get it, if she sees us as a family.” He said, ready to end the call, so he could join his wife in the garden. Emre agreed, and hoped his brother was right. ” You need to set a time for the meeting and let me know, and do you want me and Leila to join you as well?” He asked. Can wanted to ask Sanem about the time first, before saying, but he didn’t feel they needed Emre and Leila, so declined his offer. 

Sanem looked up as Can walked out, ” Was that Emre, by the way, when are they coming to visit, I really miss my sister?” She asked. ” Yes, it was Emre, and Ms. Gulden has agreed to meet here, I just need to know what time you think we should have her over.” He asked, carefully studying her face. She wanted to tease Can about a little, but she could see he was serious about it, so she changed her mind. ” Maybe early afternoon, but….do you want her to meet the babies or not, because we have our routine of playtime with them after their midday feeding, you know.” She replied, hoping he would agree with her. ” Oh, whatever time you think, I want her to get the picture, I want you and the babies present.” Sanem nodded, ” Ok, then 2:00 it is, we’ll carryon as usual, and show off our babies to their daddy’s new girlfriend.” She said, trying to keep a straight face. ” Sanem, that’s not funny, don’t ever say that again.” He spouted, squinting his eyes at her. She laughed, ” I’m sorry, I couldn’t help it, you just seem so nervous, I was just trying to lighten the mood.” She said, reaching over to stroke his face. ” It will be fine Can, I’m beside you every step of the way, and so are your children. Even if you decide you want to do the modeling, we will make it work.” Just the truth, ok, that’s all I want.” She whispered to him, seeing how her comment had hurt him. Can nodded in agreement, ” Babe, I want this woman to see what my life is, and what I want it to be. No interruptions or games, you all are my life, and I don’t need anything else.” He stated, holding her hands in his. 

Emre knew his brother had more nerve than he did, inviting a woman like that to his home with his wife and kids. He still remembered the meeting with her and the way she looked at him. She didn’t seem the type to get the hint. ” Ms. Gulden, Can would like to set a meeting with you for tomorrow at 2:00, at his home, if that works for you.” He replied, waiting for her answer. She quickly agreed, and Emre told her he would send the address. ” There’s no reason to send the address, I know exactly where he lives, but thank you so much for setting this up for me.” She said, her voice giving him a weird feeling. ” You’re welcome, but don’t thank me for anything, and don’t assume this is a done deal, just because of this meeting.” My brother is a hard person to convince of something, if he really doesn’t want to do it. He added, hoping she would get the hint. Leila wasn’t happy about the meeting, and the fact it was at their home, but she felt that Sanem could definitely take care of herself. It just might be Ms. Gulden that didn’t know what she was in for. 

Eda Gulden, she was a woman that was used to getting what she wanted. And the fact she had many wants, made her very bold and blunt when it came to getting it. Her appearance was always her strong point, she made sure it didn’t match her age. He husband had left her the company and enough money to maintain her lifestyle, along with the upkeep of her youthful look. In other words, she was a middle age woman, willing to pay anything to look like she wasn’t. She had noticed Can Divit sometime ago, even before her much older husband passed on. He had struck a chord in her and she begin to follow his work. The news of him running the agency, set her wheels of thought turning. After her husband was gone, the company needed a new look and a jump start to be able to compete, so…. the new line was born, almost entirely for Can Divit. ” Just About Men” or JAM, was designed for him, for him to model and become the face of the name. The fact he was married, never concerned her, she would take care of that.

But the children, that was the challenge, she never had them and didn’t care to……

” Besides, how good could a woman look after having three babies at one time anyway.”…. She wondered, letting her mind picture what she thought….

Chapter 14

Sanem’s night was short, with Can deciding to try and break that 4-hour record and the babies, thinking it was morning, she had a total of 3 hours of sleep. She was just getting Ates back down for the third time, when Can peeked his head in, ” Do you need help, or can I get a quick run? He asked, seeming excited at the possibility.  She nodded, ” Sure, go ahead, they’re down for now.” She replied, giving him a smile. ” I’ll be back in a bit, then we can have some breakfast, Ok.” He said, planting a firm demanding kiss on her. He jogged done the hall and out the front door. She wanted a long luxurious bath, with some bubbles and candles, but that would probably have to wait, so she jumped in the shower, hoping to would rejuvenate her. It was always quick; she didn’t want to miss it if they woke up. She looked at herself in the mirror, as she brushed her hair, ” Wow, I have some major dark circles under my eyes.” She grabbed her cream and applied it to her face, it was good for everything, and it was organic. This wasn’t the day she wanted to look like she felt, that’s for sure, so it would take some makeup to fix her today. She blows dried her hair and pulled it back in a ponytail, it was almost automatic for her to do that. She caught a glimpse of herself as she turned to leave the bathroom, ” Sanem, you have to stop doing this, you have to try and fix up a little.” She thought, ” Ok, after breakfast I’ll get ready, put on some makeup and I’ll fix my hair.” She told herself. She started down the hall, when she heard Can already starting to fix breakfast, she hurried in, ” No babe, I’ll do it, you go get a shower.” She said, standing on her tiptoes to give him a kiss. He tilted his head, ” Are you sure, I don’t mind cooking.” He spoke. She shooed him out the kitchen, ” I’m going to cook something good, if it kills me.” She thought, fumbling through the refrigerator.

She had the table set and the food was ready, when Can came back. Showered and smelling great, his hair wet and wavy, framing that gorgeous face. He smiled, ” Why are you looking at me like that?” He asked, squinting his eyes at her. She waved her hand I front of her face, as if to clear the air, ” Nothing, uhm, breakfast is ready.” She said, smiling softly as she dishes up the eggs and vegetables. ” Oh, this looks great Sanem, you did a good job.” He stated, digging into the plate of food. She watched him from across the room, ” Why wouldn’t any woman be drawn to that, he’s perfect.” She thought, ” But that perfect man is mine, and I don’t intend to let anyone else think otherwise.” Her mind thought, knowing what she had to do. She joined him at the table, ” I’m so proud of you babe, this is really good.” He exclaimed, “You look beautiful this morning, by the way, but yet you always do.” He said, his eyes making her tingle all over. She nodded her head, in a ” compliment accepted” manner and returned his look of desire.  ” So, where are you planning to have your meeting today, here or outside in the garden?” She said, hoping he would say the living room, so she could keep an ear on the babies. ” I think here that way we can have the babies close, you know, we are staying on our regular routine.” He spoke. ” She’s going to see us as we usually are, our home and our babies, she will see what really makes me happy.” He said, grabbing her hand and kissing it.

She cleaned the kitchen as Can took care of the first waking little one. Of course, it was Yildiz, she could hear her daddy’s voice a mile away, making her beg for her daddy’s attention. He was filling her in on the agenda for the day, as Sanem walked in the nursery, ” We will have company today my daughter, so I need you to be especially charming today, and listen to everything.” He told her, in his business-like voice. Her eyes were wide with curiosity, and she listened intently, to every word. Her daddy was special to her, you could tell in her eyes, they had that bond that would never be broken. She cleared her throat, to let him know she was there, ” What are you telling our daughter, to be charming?” She said smiling. ” When is she not charming, she’s just like her father.” She spouted, with Yildiz jerking her head towards the sound of her mother’s voice. She leaned down, giving her a kiss on the nose, ” You are always charming my baby, just make an impression on the lady today, for daddy.” She said, smiling. Can shot her a look, ” No, just the opposite, Sanem. Don’t make it sound like that.” He spoke. ” Sorry, my love, but Yilly is going to do what she wants to do, you know that don’t you, so be prepared.” They both laughed.

The next couple of hours were spent feeding and changing the babies. Sanem almost lost track of time, as she was running through the living room, trying to tidy up things from the night before. Can had made a couple of things for them to snack on during the meeting, since it was a lunch time, and made coffee. With fifteen minutes to spare, she told Can she would go get ready and be back to greet their guest. She hurried to the bathroom, took her hair down, flipped her head upside down a ran her finger through, making her hair full and shiny. She pulled it back in a loose bun, with long strands framing her face. There wasn’t time to strategically apply makeup, so just bit more cream for the dark circles, some blush for glow and mascara to brighten up her eyes. The most important thing was next, her lips, she put on a dark rose lip gloss, it made everything else better. She rummaged through her closet looking for something that would be suitable, but did she want comfortable or competitive……she chooses competitive. She yanked the light blue dress from the hanger, it wasn’t exactly an everyday dress, but it wasn’t everyday a woman was coming to try and take your man, so ” Make that statement Sanem” her inner voice was yelling. She slid the dress over her head, it still fit like a glove, making her feel good. But the top was a bit tight, due to the increase of her bust line. The neckline was low, and it just had thin straps, so her bra wasn’t going to work. She quickly took off her bra and adjusted herself in the dress. She looked at herself in the mirror, she heard voices in the living room, so she knew Ms. Gulden was here. Wow, that’s a lot of cleavage, she thought, but,. if you’re going to do it, do it right. One last look, ” It looks good,” she said out loud. Just pray for no breast leakage…….

She walked down the hall….and around the corner.

Can turned, looking at her, his eyes wide in disbelief….

” This Is my wife, Sanem,” He stuttered, blinking his eyes.

Chapter 15

Sanem quickly scanned the woman, ” I thought Leila said she was 48 years old; THIS is not a 48-year-old woman. She thought, her mind buzzing. No this is a whole different ballgame now, she said in her head. She extended her hand to welcome her, ” Ms. Gulden, so glad to meet you, welcome to our home.” She said her voice a little high pitched, the way it got when she was upset. Can recognized it immediately, ” Yes my dear, here have a seat, here, next to me.” He insisted. She looked at him with a thousand questions lashing from her eyes. ” Thank you love,” she said, scooting in between the two. The woman was one of those that made you feel inferior, even when you weren’t. The looks she gave Can, were certainly not work related, but Sanem had to keep her cool, for the agency’s sake. Ms. Gulden was the first to speak, ” Sanem? Is that right, please call me Eda, and I’m pleased to meet you.” She said, nodding slowly. Sanem returned the gesture, ” I am pleased to meet you too, I’ve heard a lot about you, so I was looking forward to this meeting.” She said, directing her look to Can. Ms. Gulden looked around, ” Your home is lovely, it’s so open and chic.” She said, smiling a smug smile. On the bookshelf was a copy of Sanem’s books, and she recognized them right away, ” Are you a fan of Ms. Aydins writings? She asked, looking surprised. Can looked at her with a puzzled look, ” Sanem is Ms. Aydin, that’s her maiden name, I thought you knew.” He said, taking Sanem’s hand. Eda Gulden was in shock, ” No, I didn’t, but what a nice surprise, I’m a big fan.” She said, blushing a bit. “So, his wife was famous, and beautiful.” Her mind thought, Hmm, this one may be harder than I thought.

As if right on cue, the first Divit triplet to want lunch was Ates. Sanem quickly excused herself, making her way down the hall to the nursery. The dress had been a mistake to wear, so she had to completely take the whole top down to let Ates eat. ” How stupid.” She thought, ” Now I have to change clothes.”Just be yourself.” She said to herself.  Ates always took so long to eat, she savored every drop, that Can came to check on her. ” Are you ok, he asked, seeing her sitting there with the top of the dress around her waist. ” Yes, I’m fine.” She smiled. He laughed, ” Why did you pick that dress to wear today?”  He asked, shaking his head. Her eyes glared at him, ” Because you didn’t tell me she looked like that, you said older woman.” She said, putting Ates back in her crib, and pulling up the top of her dress. She was furious and Can knew it, ” That, Can, is the finest that money can buy, and it looks like she has plenty of it.” She spewed in a whispered voice. He hides the humor he found in it, and put his arms around her, ” My beautiful wife, are you jealous? He asked, kissing her pouting lips. ” There’s absolutely no reason to be, you are all I look at, or all I want to see in my life.” He said quietly. She moved away, ” I’ve got to change, tell our guest I’ll be right back.” She said, heading to their bedroom. Can knew she always had felt like she wasn’t equal to some other woman, but to him she was far and above all the rest. Ms. Gulden had pitched a good deal to him, as they waited for Sanem to return, but the appeal still wasn’t there. Even knowing she had designed the whole line around him wasn’t good enough. He wouldn’t leave his family for that. 

Yildiz was fussing as Sanem came out of the bedroom, so she went to change her. Then Deniz woke up and chimed in, ” Can,” she called to him, ” I need some help please.” Can came right in taking Deniz, changing him, and grabbing a bottle he headed back to the living room. ” Bring Yilly when your done babe.” He suggested, ” Its time she meet our crew.” He said smiling. She opted for a bottle for Yilly too and went back to their guest. Eda wasn’t one to take to children, but she tried to be act infatuated with them. Yilly was fighting the bottle, she never liked taking it, so it had to be daddy to give it to her. Eda watched them closely, as they feed, talked and loved on their babies. She saw this handsome, muscular man in a whole different light, one that didn’t appeal much to her. He came with too much baggage. After the bottle, she offered to hold Yildiz, while Can fixed some tea. The incident happened so quickly, there wasn’t a thing they could have done, Yildiz, had decided she didn’t like her lunch from the bottle and deposited it all down the front of Ms. Gulden’s expensive jacket…. Can hurried to grab her, more concerned about Yilly, than Ms. Gulden’s clothes. Sanem apologized for the mishap, but the meeting was over, as she called her driver to pick her up. She looked at Sanem and Can, ” I’m sorry, but I think you are right where you need to be, I will take a look at the models your brother and Deren selected and make my choice from there.” She spewed, wiping the spit up from her clothes with a baby wipe… She turned and was gone, rushing to her car that was waiting for her. 

Both Can and Sanem stood there in shock, what had happened, what made her do that. Yilly had never spit up that much before, maybe a drool, but this was a gusher. After a minute they both broke out in laughter, ” I don’t think Yilly liked her.” Sanem said. ” I told you that she would do what she wanted to do.” Can started to the nursery, to clean her up. Sanem finished with Deniz and followed shortly, she stopped at the door to listen to their conversation, ” I’m not saying it was right, what you did, but I won’t scold you for it.” I will always trust your judgement of people from now on, my beautiful daughter.” He spoke so gently to her, as she cooed at his lecture. Sanem smiled, how alike they were, she had the same relationship with her father, and it was something that would never end. The afternoon returned to normal, they had their playtime on the floor, which always made them tired. The bath and massage were next, then their dinner and bed. Emre called in the middle of bath time, ” Can, Ms. Gulden called and has decided to look at the models we selected, how did you pull that off? He asked, surprised at the change of mind. Can laughed, ” Well it seems your niece didn’t like her much and decided to lose her lunch all over her.” So, she thought I might be better off where I am.” He said, laughing. Emre couldn’t believe what happened but was glad they would still be able to work with them. 

With the babies down for the night, and everything else done, Sanem grabbed her notebook and went to the garden, Can followed her, ” Are you writing tonight? He asked, ready to call it a night

” Yes, I have to,” I have to record what happen today.” She said leaning her head back. 

” This chapter will be titled, ” How Yilly helped save Daddy from the Wicked Witch of the East.”….

” What do you think, my love”……..

Chapter 16

The agency took the campaign for the jewelry company, with one of the top models in Turkey as its spokesperson. Ms. Gulden was more than pleased with the layout of the ad, and with her newfound love interest, even with the fact he was 20 years her junior. Can wasn’t ready to return to work yet, no matter how hard Emre tried to persuade him. The couple was still determined to do the raising of their 3 babies on their own, although at times, it felt like Yildiz was the one doing the raising. Over the months that followed, these 3 tiny humans took on the look of, clearly individual people. Each had traits that made them special, Ates was always daydreaming, off in her own little world, Deniz was rambunctious and full of life, he was the one to crawl first and the one to do all the exploring. Yilly, studied everyone, always listening, only vocal when it served a purpose, she always let them know what she thought before they even asked. Can took more of the responsibility when Sanem took her notebook and went to the garden, her writing had become a big part of her life again, with Bedir pushing her to let them publish the notebook that she had kept since the first day she learned she was pregnant. All the good and bad, the ups and the lows that took them to the depths of hell, but she was hesitant. Can had left the decision entirely up to her, she knew her heart, and he knew she would make the decision that was best for their family. 

Another book? She had sworn she wouldn’t, but this one was special. It was full of the happiest times of their lives, and the saddest. Could they handle it, she wondered, but that was why she had written it in the first place, to help other couples to cope with the loss of a child. Her mind thought logically, but her heart was still raw from the events that led them to where they were now. Her story needed to be read, listened to, understood, like nothing else she had ever written. But first she would read it to her children, from the first page to the present page, it was their story……No one had seen the notebook, read it or even looked at one page of it, except Can, until now……With their children nearing their one-year birthday, she felt the need to start sharing with them, the road that led them to this time. They already shared her joy of books and loved to listen to her read, even Can would take his turn in reading to them at night. Ates especially, it was her favorite time of the day, her eyes were always focused, and you could tell she was concentrating on every word. Deniz was usually the first one to fall asleep during the story time, and Yilly, well let’s just say she was the one to say if the story was good or not. 

She decided that on their special day, she would introduce them to her notebook. That would be the book she would read to them each night. One chapter at a time, she might even add a little embellishment as she went along, but the story of their family would tell them of the love that lives in their hearts. She would let them know the strength their parents had, just to carryon so they could be this happy, loving family. This first, then she would think about publishing it, for all to read. Can was busy at his computer when she walked in from the garden, ” Are you busy babe, I need to talk if you can.” She said, hugging him from behind. ” Never too busy for you love, what’s up.” He said, patting her hand. ” It’s about the book, or my notebook, I should say.” I’m not ready to publish anything yet.” But I do want to read it to the children first.” She stated, looking at him intently. ” What do you think, I mean, from the beginning, the first day I found out I was pregnant.” She said, looking down at the floor to avoid his eyes. ” Sanem you know our children better than anyone else, you and I formed their heart and souls, so if this feels right to you then that’s what we’ll do.” His words dripped with emotion, from heartache to joy.  She knew it was the right thing to do, and she felt relief in her heart. ” Good, then it starts tomorrow, after their birthday party,” she replied, clapping her hands together. 

The party was simple, just family, and just small gifts. Grandmama and Grandpapa Aydin brought each of them a new stuffed animal. MeMe and Poppy Divit, brought them each a new book to add to their collection. Aunt Leila and Uncle Emre brought them new teething rings, which was very well received. The couple had hoped to be pregnant themselves by the time the triplets turned one, but some problems had kept them disappointed and still trying. The day was exciting and filled with so much love they could hardly stand it. With them all three walking and toddling about, it took the whole family to keep them all in one place. The three were exhausted and ready for naps, so Sanem and Leila put them down. ” Abla, Bedir has been pressuring me to publish another book, and I have the notebook that I started writing when I found out I was pregnant the first time. It has everything in it from day one.” It started out with the joy we felt, but then to the pain, and how we melted together with love to make it through.” Sanem said, holding her sisters’ hand. ” I wrote it to help other parents that have lost babies, so I will read it to the babies first then, I want you to read it.” She whispered, trying to control the tears. Leila hugged her sister, “ Sanem, I will read it with joy, I know some day we will have a family to, but it’s just the waiting that tests your heart.” She said sadly. Sanem’s heart cried for her sister and Emre, but she knew it would happen for them one day. 

The party lasted long after the babies were down for their naps. They had missed visiting with their family, so they were making up for lost time. It was funny, all that Can and Sanem had to talk about was each funny and different thing the kids had done over the past few days, but nothing seemed more important to them than that. By the time, the kids were up from their naps, the family was ready to leave, with all the kisses and goodbyes said, everyone was gone. It was always a hectic few hours before their bedtime, fixing the dinner, then the never-ending chore of getting them to eat all their food, a bath, and the good relaxing massage with their cream. It had been one of the things that had remained solid in their routine. Then lastly, the bedtime story, but this night would be different, special, not just for them but for Can and Sanem also. She knew this wouldn’t be the only time she would read them this story, but the first time meant so much more.

Sanem would start the story for tonight…. ” We have a new story tonight, my babies.” She said, getting their attention. Ates was automatically tuned in, focused just on the tone of her mother’s voice. Deniz was hard to settle down, but Yilly always held his hand, sitting next to him, just like a big sister should. She was so beyond her age, so like a little mommy, it made Sanem laugh.

” This story is about you, each one of you, and how you came to be our babies.” She said, looking at Can, as he stood by the door, listening, as if this was his first time to hear it……….

This was the first of many times she would read them their story….

Chapter 17

This chapter starts three years later. The triplets have just had their fourth birthday and Can and Sanem had decided to put them in their first school experience. It was a Pre-K program that would attend for half a day. This came after much debate between the parents about it, the first of many I will say. 

” Can, they need other children, not just us.” She stated, as she emptied the sheets from the dryer to the basket. ” They need to know how to interact with them, you know. ” She said. Can was busy on his computer, checking out the school she had told him about. ” Babe, they have each other to interact with, that’s the perks of having three at a time.” He yelled back to her. She shook her head, ” They need friends, not just their sibling.” It’s called experience, my love, and it’s only for a couple of hours a day.” She spouted, walking into the bedroom where he was. He wasn’t going to be easy to convince, but she didn’t want her children to be isolated from a normal life. No boarding schools for her kids, she didn’t care what their last names were. She sat down beside him, ” See, it’s a nice place,” she said looking at its web page. ” They are highly recommended, and the kids will love it.” She said, kissing him on the neck. He sighed, ” But what do they want to do, are they wanting to do this.” He asked. Sanem had already talked to them about going to play with other kids, and Deniz was all for it, Ates wanted to know who all would be there, and Yilly, she had assured her mom she would take care of the other two. She knew this was hard for him, but it really was best for the children, ” You talk to them daddy, see what you think, then we’ll decide, Ok.” She said, stroking his beard. 

Sanem was in the middle of her second book, and Bedir was putting a little pressure on her to finish it quickly, the public had been banging their fists on the table for more of the Divit family. Her time to write was wedged between laundry, teaching time, making lunch or snacks, and bedtime. Which left her approximately 1:45 mins a day to write, that is if she didn’t want to shower. If the babies were in school, she would be able to get a bit more done. Can understood, but he wanted to teach them at home, he even offered to hire a teacher for a homeschool. ” Absolutely not, our children are not privileged, they are normal, and they will be treated as normal.” She argued. With enrollment set for the next day, she had to get Can on board, ” Let’s just go see what it’s like, take the kids and let them see it.” She said softly, using her lips to persuade him. ” Ok, we’ll go, but I’m not 100% sold yet.” He stuttered, feeling the effects from her. She jumped up and clapped her hands, ” Great, thank you my love, you’ll love it I promise.” she exclaimed. 

He couldn’t deny her, never could, and probably never would. So, he would agree, he knew he would, but making her think she convinced him was more fun. He brought up the subject after the kids were down for the night, and they were alone in their bedroom, ” Maybe we should rethink this school thing, I think they are just fine here, we can get someone to help us.” He said, trying to sound determined. She turned with her hands firmly planted on her hips, ” Can, we agreed, let’s give it a chance, you heard what the kids said at dinner, they want to go.” She said, knowing how her husband’s mind worked. ” You just want me to try and convince you again, with sex, like you’re not going to get it anyway.” She said, calmly and steadily removing her clothes in front of him, until she stood there in nothing. His eyes were fixed and wide, taking in all she had to offer, he hadn’t heard a word she said after her leggings had come off, so he was ready to agree to anything.  He stood, swallowed hard, and reached for her. She took her finger and thumped him on the nose, ” I’m taking a shower,” she said, seeing that look on his face, “Alone” He let out the breath he had been holding, as she turned and headed to the shower, like he was a balloon, and had been stuck with a pin. ” Well, that didn’t play out the way I wanted.” He thought, as he undressed and got in bed. She took her time in the shower, most of it was just letting the water run. ” Let him think about, she thought, as she toweled off, ” Two can definitely play that game.” As she came from the bathroom he was already in bed and reading a book. He tried not to look at her, but that was impossible, especially when she came out the same way she went in, with nothing on. She crawled in the bed, all the way across to his side, ” Listen let’s not play these games, ok? Not with us, and our love for each other.” She whispered, swinging her leg over him, and taking the book from his hands. 

OH MY GOD…. This woman would kill me one day, he thought, as his heart had jumped so far, it felt like it was in his head, pounding and beating so hard he was dizzy. She had taken control and wasn’t about to let go. The next two hours had sent him to a place he had never been before, and he never wanted to leave. He woke up in bed alone, and he wondered if he had dreamed the whole thing, but he smiled when he saw the marks left on his body, and he knew he hadn’t. He heard Sanem talking to the kids, so he decided to join them. First, he had to shower, his muscles ached, but in the best possible way. The shower was a quick one, he dressed and went to the kitchen, ” There you are sleeping beauty.” She said giving him a wink. ” Did you sleep well? She asked. He smiled, ” Very well, thank you.” He said, giving her a look up and down. ” You’re welcome, anytime.” She said, smiling. With the children feed and dressed and loaded in the car, they headed to the school. Can loved the school, and all the teachers there loved him, which made Sanem laugh. With the paperwork done and the teachers met, they started back home. They were all excited about the new adventure, or so that’s what daddy called it. Then he told them of some of the places he had traveled to, as he drove. It always quietens them down to hear him talk about his adventures. 

This life was perfect, she thought, listening to his every word. 

He still made her weak, with just a look…. she thought, that will never change….

Chapter 18

The second day of school was easier than the first. Two of them seemed to have a small meltdown when it came time for Sanem and Can to leave the school, but Yilly took over, leading them back to their rooms, while their parents snuck out the door. Can looked at Sanem when they got to the car, ” if that happens again, I’m taking them home.” He said, with tears rimming his eyes. She smiled, ” They will be fine, it’s just new.” She spoke. Bedir had called earlier, but she wasn’t able to talk, so she called him back. ” Yes, I know I’m a little behind.” She said, rolling her eyes. ” Look we just got the little ones in a school, so I should be able to devote a little more time to writing.” She explained. She grimaced a bit, feeling a bit sick at her stomach. Can touched her arm, “You ok?” He asked. She waved at him, signaling she was fine. She promised to call him back later in the week with an updated chapter. ” It’s just nerves,” she said, ” Don’t worry, I have a lot to do.” She told Can, feeling the nausea ease up. ” I don’t know why you agreed to another book so quick, it’s too much.” He spouted, lacing his finger through hers. She smiled, looking out the window. 

She went straight to her desk when they got home, grabbed her notebook and her blanket. Her favorite place to write was, of course, the garden, so she curled up in her chair and went to her last page. Her mind had gotten so involved in writing she didn’t realize it was time to pick up the children. Can came out, ” Sanem, it’s time to go.” He said as he walked towards the car. She raised her head, no it can’t be, she thought, where did the time go. She met him at the car, ” Did you get a lot done?” He asked as they started down the road. ” Yes, but it went by so quickly,” she said, a little embarrassed. The ride back home was their usual chaos, they all wanted to talk at once, which made Ates upset, because what she had to say was always more important. The same nauseated, uneasy feeling came over Sanem, as she tried to listen to them. She closed her eyes, leaning her head back, Can reached for her hand, ” Babe, what’s wrong.” He asked. Yilly hushed the other two siblings, ” Quiet, mommies head hurts.” She said, trying to whisper. By the time they had reached the road leading to the farm, she couldn’t wait any longer, ” Can, pull over now,” He did so, immediately, she jumped out and ran to the back of the car, throwing up everything she had consumed earlier in the day. Her mind was racing, ” I can’t get sick,” she thought, as she steadied herself on her feet and walked back to the door. Can looked at her concerned, she smiled slightly and motioned him to continue. All three children were silent as they went down the long driveway to their house. Can got the kids their snack and Sanem brewed some tea, Can watched her as she tried to hide her discomfort. 

The afternoon was filled with their activities, they loved playing outside, and Sanem sat in her chair, watching over them. Still, she felt the uneasiness she felt before, almost a weak feeling. She felt of her forehead, no she didn’t have a fever. It must be a stomach bug, was her reasoning, it had to be. Can did more than his share the rest of the day, cooking the dinner, and taking over the bath time chore, as Sanem cleaned the kitchen. They both tucked the kids in bed, trying to get them to calm down. They had all taken a sudden liking to their new adventure and couldn’t wait for the next day to start. Can and Sanem both collapsed in their bed, but Can was still worried about Sanem, ” Babe, are you sure you’re ok?” He asked her, rubbing her back. She shook her head, ” I’m fine, I think it’s just a stomach bug, I’ll be fine by in the morning.” She said, taking his arm and wrapping it around her. He kissed her on the shoulder, feeling her breathing go steady and shallow, as she drifted off the sleep. 

Her eyes opened and she looked at the clock, 5:15 it’s still early, she thought, but that feeling was there. She slid out of bed easily, so she didn’t wake Can, and went to the bathroom. She knew this feeling all too well, but how did it happen. She checked the small calendar she had in the drawer, she kept it to keep track of her cycles. She marked her day of the month with a small heart, in the corner of the square. Yep, she was 3 weeks late. She sat down on the side of the tub, that’s what it is, she said out loud, her whole body getting a chill. She dug around in the bottom drawer and found an unopened pregnancy test that was left from the triplets. The nausea was getting stronger as she sat there, staring at the box, I don’t even need to take it, I know. But forced herself to do it anyway. As she waited for the line to form, her mind was already preparing for the results, ” Oh my god, I hope it’s not triplets again, she thought, her stomach lurching at the thought. But if it is, it is, her head told her. You will deal with it. The 5 minutes seemed like an hour, but……there it was, two blue lines, as bold and bright as it could be. 

In that 5 minutes, she had already excepted, devoted and opened her heart to her baby. That love of a mother for her baby had been planted, and it was deeply rooted. She let the tears form, but they were tears of joy and thankfulness, that she could bring another life into this world for the man she loved with all of her heart. Her head was in a fog, how would she tell him. Would she tell him secretly, or maybe a big production, with everyone here? It really didn’t matter how; she just knew he would be so happy. She heard the alarm go off, as she looked at herself in the mirror, ” Time to get started momma.” She whispered, with a smile. Can was up and already headed to the kitchen, and the kids were rolling out of their beds. This day was started……Can was cooking, he insisted they eat a food breakfast, and of course the two girls were arguing about what to wear. Yilly was picking out Ates’s outfit, and she didn’t like it. ” Daddy, let me wear this.” Ates said, running into the kitchen, holding up her princess dress up dress. Can was laughing at her, ” No, that’s not a school dress, so let Yilly help you find something,” he said. He yelled a Deniz, ” Getup son, it’s time to get dressed, come on, let’s be good for mom this morning.” He spoke. She watched from down the hall, ” What a chaotic Divit morning,” she thought, as she walked to the kitchen. 

His face lit up as she walked in, ” Good morning my love, feeling better.” He asked, smiling

” Can, I’m pregnant.” She said, holding up the pregnancy test….

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